It was suppoed to be a short, passionate, tear filled post

Thank you new email page, without you I may have waited days, weeks even to see this trailer. I am so happy, and like the title said, I almost cried. I'm not on the verge of tears because I think it looks bad, or silly, or "emo," I'm just sad and happy at the same time.

These last two movies mark the end of part of my life. Even though I only entered the Harry Potter world [the book world at least] in 7th grade I have always felt home when talking, reading or watching Harry Potter. I know that some critics, friends of mine even, hated, absolutely despised the Order of the Phoenix, movie and book. But I look and read all of the books and find something good and bad about all of them. I think that's necessary in order to completely appreciate the series.

I have been watching the movies since they came out, as a third grader I remember hearing about the fact that the movie was a book. Later that year I tried to read that same book, I couldn't do it. It wasn't until one of my best friends told me about a crucial moment in the The Half Blood Prince and I did not want to believe her. So I took it upon myself to find out. Here is how it went down in my head. [I'm not crazy].

"I just saw the fourth movie, there was some serious Harry-Cho stuff going on, maybe I should read the fourth one first."
"Well wouldn't that ruin the story? Shouldn't I start with the first?"
"Nah, why would I do that? I'm a teenager, I want to read about teenagers!"
"I'm right, to the fifth book it is!"
"What, why the fifth book? I was just talking about the fourth."
"Yeah but I already know what happens in the fourth book, why would I want to read that?"
"Okay, makes sense."

So I went off to read the fifth, then the sixth, fourth, third, first and half of the second. Yes, it's true, I never really finished the second. I spend a good amount of time searching for that book in my house and it took me forever. So before I found it I caved in and read the first one.

And then the seventh, of course. Now, I went through a period of complete Harry Potter bliss, having the first six books at my disposal, [the same is true for Twilight, but we won't go there]. So when I reached the middle of the second book I was sad, what was I going to do with the rest of my time? Wait for the seventh book? The real reason I think I stopped reading the Chamber of Secrets is because all of the Deathly Hallows hype began. Another best friend and I went to Borders for a midnight release party, which was a lot of fun, she however has not even finished the 5th book.

I got my Ravenclaw banner, but my friends and I have determined that I would really be a Hufflepuff [but I'm not putting yellow in my room], I got a dark mark and days later made a wand. After getting home at 1 o'clock I read the first two chapters and finished the rest of it the next day. I laughed, I cried, I screamed, but I did not throw the book at the wall. The protective cover was placed at my side and I sped through that book. I loved all of it.

When I finished it I proceeded to walk around my house and mutter "It's all over" to myself. Living in a non-HP household at the time I had no one to vent to. I wasn't allowed to say a thing to my mother because she claimed she was going to read all of the books. [She didn't for two years]. It got so bad that I went through the book again and recorded every character that died, which did not really help my HP depression.

Huzzah! The fifth movie came out, my spirits were lifted. Then the sixth, and I was happy. But then I remembered that each movie that came out meant that Harry Potter was one step closer to being over. It was similar to a situation that occurred to me recently: I grew up watching Disney movies, you know, the good 'ol 2D kind, Snow White, Sleeping Beauty, etc.

"What are my kids going to watch?" I asked myself. "The Princess and the Frog?" Disney has changed its animation so much that I think generations to come will reject the old 2D ways. But I digress.

So what are my kids going to read? Harry Potter of course! I think I'll enjoy that, getting to see someone read the series for the first time. The next generation may not go to midnight releases or shows but they can zoom through them and reread them just like me. My parents did not have a book series like I do, no phenomenon for them to obsess about.

I don't follow celebrities, I follow Harry Potter.

Not in a cultish way, if that's what you thought. Earlier this year I went to a Harry Potter museum at a local university with a good friend of mine. I went there thinking it would be for little kids, I was wrong, so very wrong. College students walked around, waving decorated branches with tags identifying what magical element it contained. We went to Defense Against the Dark Arts with Snape and Slughorn and drank the drought of living death. I lived. Take that! I even got a picture with Snape and Fred and George.

These past years filled with Harry Potter have been amazing. This book series has definitely been a major part of my developing fangirl ways, without it I may not be the same person. Over dramatic, I know.

And so I say "Adios" to the series until November comes and I reread DH and see the movie. Farewell.

XDara